I really don’t have time for people who criticize and judge me. Even if they do it silently, I can feel their bad vibes. My intuition is too strong to ignore them. So they can either self-select out of my world, or I will let them go.
My sister recently cut me off. While it was initially surprising and painful, I soon realized it was for the best. She has never liked me, and I’ve never felt seen by her. When I was a child, my father literally told me to tone down my light so I wouldn’t overshadow her. While I doubt she would admit it, I feel she’s been deeply jealous of me for most of her life.
And she’s been open about her contempt. She has berated me and judged me with violent communication. She almost never apologizes for her words. In the past few years I have tolerated her limited presence in my life, faking nice, so that our children could play together. I love my nieces, and yet I have been afraid to get too close to them knowing my relationship with my sister was unstable.
Well we can finally stop pretending with each other, which feels relieving. I just exhaled deeply writing this.
I hope I will find a way for our kids to see each other without having to socialize with my sister. I trust it will work out because my daughter has very strong manifesting powers! I have struggled with guilt over how this will impact my daughter, but at the end of the day, I come back to my well being. I need to protect it in order to show up as the best parent for her.
It does her no good to see a mom who is sacrificing her happiness and health. By holding onto negative relationships, what would I be teaching her?